the silver screen of the old Lyceum Theatre. Eat my first A&W Papa Burgers again across from Polo Park, after Ice Capades, Shrine Circus or the Ex. Those hot, exotic first sojourns down Grand Beach way. The sweet scent of train oil and tar on the tracks leading up to the boardwalk. Doing my balancing act all along. To see . . . my baba again. To see HER again. Well, maybe this idea of life after death ain't so bad after all. But . . . what about the month-old baby that dies at the hand of a brutal parent? Abused from day one? Does that mean it will spend eternity in bloody pain? Requires a major attitude adjustment toward pain. One would have to find a positive there. Somewhere. What's one man's food is another's poison? Beauty in the eye of the beholder? Truth in the eye of the beholder?